Am I scared? I am petrified. I wake in middle of the night in a pool of fear. I check my heart in middle of the day to make sure it is beating – but not beating too fast. I see the color of my skin change slightly and I panic – is this a reaction from the chemo like the two of four treatments that have sent me to the ER and extended stays in the hospital? Yes – Chasdie Hashem – the first time I had a reaction and was in the hospital for five days – admitted to the ER in a state of shock – the doctor told my frightened wife on day three – “he has turned a corner” – but it was the corner that puts us back on the long block to fighting Bezras Hashem – on the road to true recovery.
Am I scared? I am petrified. I hate asking for favors. HATE IT. It is so torturous being in a position where I need something from someone. There are so very many emotions and personal characteristics of mine that make me cringe and run from the idea of asking another to do something for me – but now is not the time for me to think of me. I have a wife, I have three little kids and I have cancer. We need your tefilos.
In a few days I will be having my first scans since I started treatment. Those scans will show what Hashem wants to be seen. No more – no less. So here I go – I am going to ask you for what I need from you.
SHUT YOUR PHONE OFF BEFORE ENTERING SHUL. PLEASE.
There is nothing – nothing – that can’t wait. Respect the Makom tefillah. Don’t put it on vibrate – don’t silence the ringer – simply turn it off. Please. I wish that this could be a rule in every shul – before entering make sure your phone is off. I am not a Rav – and I don’t claim to be a very learned man so I can’t quote you halachos etc. – but I can resort to the simplest and most obvious logic – you are talking to GOD.
I can’t lecture – and I can’t expound – but I can ask for a favor that I need – and I just have. Bezras Hashem – with your tefilos – I will be able to subject myself to the potential “art though looks” for years to come – for if you are looking at me – you are looking at a husband, a father – one – that has turned a corner that my family and I – so desperately need to turn.
Thank you.
(Reb Daniel Z”L was Niftar today.)
Nebech. You can hear the Anguish in his words, you can feel the pain between the lines. And from his simple,profound request of us, we know – This was, clearly, a lofty Neshama. Plz post his name for Mishnayos. Thx. TNTBH.
Refael Daniel mordechai Ben Chaya shifra
Um, for mishnayos you need the father’s name. Thx.
That was his name for Tehilim. His name for Mishnayos is Daniel Mordechai Ben Nachum.
Daniel Mordechai ben Nachum Meir
Refael Daniel mordechai Ben Nachum Meir
Refael isn’t part of his name because he didn’t have a Refuah from when they added it on.